five blogs worth (varying degrees of) your time.

The powers that be around here (I’m looking at you, Amanda) have bestowed me with a particularly difficult task: to review and critique five randomly picked, varyingly worthwhile and only tangentially related blogs from around the internet.

Not that I’m averse to reviews or critiques or anything – much to the contrary, picking things apart is no doubt one of my favorite pastimes. But despite their innate immediacy and quick-hitting nature, blogs, as a whole, are not meant to be digested all at once: Multiple YouTube videos, 100 word posts, tweet strings, epic screeds on Michelle Obama’s dress choice – these are things we let slowly, yet constantly trickle into our lives.

We were not, as the internet gods deigned it, meant to read 3,000 words of Andrew Sullivan in one sitting. That’s a circle of hell I’m not eager to dance in again anytime soon. 

Okay, okay: so I’m not crazy about this topic. But, since we have a time/space constraint here, and only so much space is set aside for my ranting, let’s lay out the groundrules before this blogpost turns into a novella.

A good blog, in my often un-humble opinion, accomplishes the following tasks:

-Provides quality content at least once a day (preferably 5-10 times a day on sites with multiple authors or especially short posts);

-Incites interaction with readers, both in terms of commenting, social media and – most important – participation from blog administrators and authors in the conversations their content has stirred;

-Acknowledges the existence of the rest of the internet, as well as the differing perspectives and takes floating around cyberspace;

-Maintains an easily navigable layout, in which the reader neither has a problem finding content, nor feels overwhelmed by an abundance of widgets, links, ads or other colorful things that make people money;

-In following with the previous theme, makes it easy for readers to a) find other related posts or b) highlights content that the reader would not search for otherwise;

-Most of all, leaves the reader with a feeling of satisfaction intense enough that they find themselves clicking back every few hours, waiting for the author(s) byline to appear once more atop the page.

A bad blog, of course, accomplishes none of these things.

Without further ado, let’s do this. From worst to first:

Howard Fineman’s Huffington Post Blog

Host: Take a wild fucking guess

STRENGTHS: Howard Fineman is an actual journalist. All of his posts read like slightly abridged newspaper articles. (That’s meant as a compliment, by the way.) Most of the time, there’s a sense of integrity to what you are reading. Fineman does his best – as a good journalist should – to write from a non-biased perspective while also making a point through his writing. He also does a great job inciting conversation amongst readers. His pointed questions at the end of many posts have comment numbers on most of his posts stretching into the quadruple digits.

WEAKNESSES: I agree with Mr. Fineman’s politics, I just wish they could be expressed elsewhere. The format (1-2 posts a day, mostly of the abridged-journo-variety) leave the reader (at least this one) seeking more; in reading Mr. Fineman, I felt like I’d be better served by reading a newspaper, or at least a more all-encompassing news website.

Lastly, the HuffPost layout, for all its money-making glory, is a mess: it’s difficult to navigate from post to post, and the clutter on the page distracts from the content itself.

NYTimes: Well

Host: New York Times (Duh.)

STRENGTHS: Fantastic, clean and aesthetically pleasing layout. This should be an exemplar of how every news organization should be running its online outfits.

Also, it’s the New York Times. What you’ve got here is journalism: There’s some shorter stuff for sure, but mostly you’re going to be reading quality news and advice from a trustworthy news source. The post on bullied autistic children stood out in particular as the sort of informative and impactful writing you might read in a print publication.

WEAKNESSES: …because it was that sort of writing. NYTimes Well isn’t as much a blog as it is an online translation of all print articles containing a Health + Wellness keyword.

I’m not sure if this is a bad thing, but there’s something unappealing about content that leads or ends with the words “This article originally appeared in…”

Andrew Sullivan’s The Daily Dish

Host: TheDailyBeast.com

STRENGTHS:

Sullivan does a better job than any of his competitors in post frequency: I had read 20 posts before I even realized that his live blog from last night’s DNC coverage was still several posts away. He also does a wonderful job of including other voices in the conversation; his blog often responds to readers and quotes opinions both sympathetic and in opposition to his own.

Furthermore, his use of block quoting is perfect for his quick-hitting writing style, which allows him to prop up or tear down vast stretches of text with just a few well-placed sentences. Perhaps his best strength is variety– full blog posts, tweet strings, YouTube videos and other types of posts are employed frequently.

WEAKNESSES: With regards to the block quotes, Sullivan does a terrible – almost journalistically unethical – job with attribution and hyperlinks. His most recent post at the time of writing contains 165 words, 164 of which were taken from a writer at the National Journal Daily. There is no attribution on the page – only a hyperlink. (This is not an uncommon occurrence.)

Perhaps even worse: his blog has no comments section, which is a deadly sin in this arena. It’s not surprising that most of his posts have zero likes and are shared infrequently on Facebook and twitter; if you cut one head off the social media hydra, the rest are destined to die with it.

David Roberts’ Grist Blog

Host: Mhm.

STRENGTHS: Environmental issues aren’t of particular interest to me (especially when compared to politics) so I was surprised by how much I enjoyed Roberts’ blog. Each column/post is well thought out, well-linked, and well-written. In regards to the latter, his writing is forceful and interesting without going overboard; his arguments are rational and measured; and most of all, he’s not a Green Johnny One-Note. Roberts’ subject matter varies: for an environmental blog, there’s a lot of politics on here, as well as some stuff you wouldn’t expect. (Music recommendations for example.)

WEAKNESSES: The posts are a little long, but from my perspective, that’s not necessarily a bad thing.  Still, Roberts would be well-suited to reign himself in once in a while. Otherwise, I have trouble finding flaws.

Gizmodo

Host: Gawker

STRENGTHS: I’m a sucker for the Gawker network. Their layout is what every website – blog or otherwise – should aspire to: big, colorful photos set against a crisp background; an easily navigable interface that has dozens of interesting articles with alluring headlines at your fingertips; and lastly, an awesome comment section that highlights the best comments and quiets some of the noise. Tthe writing is informative while also a bit snarky. It’s always a great read.

WEAKNESSES: As someone who isn’t an ex-nerd trying to rekindle the days when he had someone to talk to about his new calculator, Gizmodo isn’t my particular cup of tea. Want an example of how a blog should run, no matter the subject? Check out some of the other Gawker sites – especially the sports-centric Deadspin, which, through its unique combination of news, snark and entertainment, has  new media down to a science.

84 inch TV’s are pretty cool tho.

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Analysis of 5 Blogs

As a college girl and card carrying member of the millennial generation, reading blogs is right up my alley. Like my peers, especially those at a competitive top twenty school, I value my own time above everyone else’s (for better or worse…probably worse) so I enjoy the easily digestible, sound bite, quick draw McGraw format that’s used in most successful blogs. In reading the Huffington Post’s Guide to Blogging, I was compelled by the bevy of information about blogs at my fingertips, most which I had never really considered at length – from creating buzz to finding a voice. (The history of the Huffington Post was interesting but I didn’t quite make the connection with how that would help my blog… again with the me thing?! I think there might be more where that came from.)  
While simultaneously considering all the advice about blogs, though, I felt a distinct sense of “Well, duh.” Growing up with my fingers usually at a keyboard and not a book, I could tell that the Huffington Post Guide’s goal was to patiently, albeit wittily, explain the ins an outs of blogs to someone unfamiliar with this crucial form of media. I know what makes a blog successful, because I’ve grown up following them. To me, this is the “traditional form of media”, not the hour-long news specials and newspapers and ye olde taverns of precious generations.  Perhaps me giving a slight cold shoulder to the explanations of the Huffington Post Guide is just the narcissism that has sneaked and streaked its way across my generation and college campus, but at the very least, I am self-aware. I (we) read blogs because they are fast, passionate, and to some extent, very self-centered – just like us.
Needless to say, I was happy to put down the book that told me how it was done, and get started on the blogs that made it happen.
Andrew Sullivan on TheDailyBeast.com: The most appealing to me of the blogs, Sullivan writes with a quick wit and an on a variety of topics that keep my generational ADD satisfied. I very much appreciate his tendency to include quotes and opinions from his readers, a refreshing addition to the blogosphere. Sullivan’s usage of photos and videos add color to his already vivid writing. I particularly enjoyed his live-blogging of the RNC and DNC in the past few weeks. The only way to remain relevant in such a vast network of reporting is to sometimes go minute by minute and I found his commentary brief and enlightening. Finally, not in terms of writing, but in terms of perspective and ideology, Sullivan’s conservatism is refreshing for my generation that is progressive on social issues.
Gizmodo.com: I also have very much enjoyed reading Gizmodo, much to my surprise. Even though I grew up in a technologically saturated world, I know that there are those out there who would surgically attach their electronic devices to their bodies if they knew said device probably wouldn’t be obsolete in .5 seconds. I am not all up on the tech jargon, nor do I really care to be. However, Gizmodo provides a great balance between the tech-sissy, the tech-savvy, and the tech-sassy (Some of the comments from the tech community can get very heated! Perhaps we should add technology to the American religion-politics taboo.)  The balanced writing and knowledge of the broad audience reflects some of the ideas in On Writing Well.  All in all, the variety of formats keeps the site fresh (“What to Buy in September” was a list, “Is it bad to shut down my computer regularly?” was a question and answer piece, and “Lenovo X1 Carbon: Holy Crap” was a review) and the endless number of fascinating topics is enough to think even my grandfather (“What’s MyFace?!”) might want to check out Gizmodo.
Well Blog on NYTimes.com: Again, a variety of topics based on a general theme makes a strong selling point to my distracted friends. “Ooh, rare infections!” “Aah, organic food!” The headline fireworks notwithstanding, the simple, recognizable format of the NYTimes.com blog page creates a navigable page for maximum clicking. While the headlines were often attention-grabbing in typical journalistic fashion, I often found myself missing the snark of Andrew Sullivan and the writers of Gizmodo when reading the Well Blog. It is extremely informative – highly valued in a time of information and misinformation overload – but it can often read a little dry. The Huffington Post Guide suggests writing like you speak, and, if some of the writers of the Well Blog are in fact embodying that lesson, I’d think twice about inviting them to a dinner party.
Howard Fineman on the HuffingtonPost.com: After looking forward to reading one of the bloggers who wrote for the site who literally wrote the book on blogging, I have to say, I was slightly disappointed. While I very much enjoyed the writing of Fineman, particularly “The Man Who is Obama’s Problem,” an excellent profile of a man he sat next to on a plane, I was hoping for more timely posts, and a bit more multimedia integration. Sullivan can go back and forth on topics, live blogs, photos and videos, while Fineman seems more structured and deliberate in his writing. In my opinion, Fineman often displays stronger writing chops, but in the blogosphere, that isn’t the only piece in the puzzle.
David Roberts on Grist.org: Again, I thought that David Roberts may have missed the “blog often” memo from the Huffington Post Guide. With just five blogs since August 14, I feel like he might not have his finger on the pulse as much as the other blogs. He also writes extremely long blogs, which could indicate why there is so much time between them. I enjoyed his piece on post-truth politics, but it was so long that I had gone back to Gizmodo.com and hit refresh to see if there was anything new to read.
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Some other blogs (but you can stay here)

So.
I’ll put my loudest complaints first, so we (love the Royal We) can end this post on a high note. Curiously, my biggest issue is with someone who has the least to say: Andrew Sullivan.
                I’m sure that, at some level, the ability to quickly compile a series of quotes from reputable sources relevant to a central issue is a useful and impressive skill. Proudly placing these quotes below yourbyline, Andrew, is an example of synthesis skill, not writing. I finished every article confused about whether any of the blue boxes (filled with the words of anyone other than Sullivan) was placed around the author’s opinions by mistake – Maybe I misread? Maybe the next article will redeem this collection of sequenced copy-pastes?
Nope.
Now, this being said, Andrew Sullivan has probably run out of things to say, as he turns out a stunning amount of content per day. It’s clear that he has a passion for current events, or the number of posts surely would have dwindled. Even his ability to find (new?) material for each subsequent blog and keep an engaged readership speaks to his intellect, if not his ability to inject a voice into his blog.
Several of the other more syndicated “blogs” shared the lack of a unique or personable voice, but for different reasons than obscuring authorship with outside quotations. While it’s somewhat unreasonable to give a critique of a blog as extensive (and multi-authored) as the NYTimes Wellness Blog in such a short space, it’s certainly worth mentioning that some of the authors do not appear to have been told they’re writing for a blog. Some “blog posts” read exactly like articles from a newspaper, lacking the conversational tone so characteristic of a blog. 
Zinsser (On Writing Well) would also disapprove of the treatment science receives in a few of the front-page articles; rather than leading into the blog with a compelling personal connection, the authors fall victim to a common journalistic trap – “Researchers at blanket blank have shown.” Others at the Wellness blog give exactly what I expect and want from the platform, namely Suleika Jaouad, whose posts about living with cancer as a young adult deserve more than a perfunctory sentence in this review.
                As far as science reporting goes, Gizmodo may disappoint Zinsser, but the intended audience for a tech blog is allowed to be more niche (and less dependent upon personal interest lead-ins) than a general readership. In the case of Gizmodo, the readership consists of highly opinionated tech-geeks whose desire for new material on consumer products (if you don’t care about smartphones, close Gizmodo and never come back) is only matched by their desire to argue in the comments below each post. Possibly because of the specificity of the blog, the authors don’t need to work hard to generate spirited conversation – The readers are out in force, and the bloggers (who all come off like the readers, but with bylines) know just what they want to read. Zinsser would be proud of the bloggers for their enthusiasm; they write about what they’re interested in, and it shows.
                With Gizmodo thoroughly summed up, we’re left with two – David Roberts at the Grist, and Howard Fineman at the Huffington Post. Fineman and Roberts share a characteristic I value in these blogs, and which NYT and the Daily Beast left me without: A voice. There is a continuity of character and personality between posts, there is personal opinion and analysis (without being drowned by quotes), and I can imagine intelligent, real people typing on the other end. If Fineman wasn’t a contributor to the HuffPo guide to blogging, he could have been – The dry humor and political wit come off like the thoughts of a longtime political journalist finally given free rein to express them without employment anxieties (perhaps that’s really the case), a writer model naturally attracted to the Huffington Post. 
                I love the picture of David Roberts at the top of his page – The beard and the humorous eyebrow raise might as well be an artist’s representation of his writing style. As far as I am concerned, this man avidly reads the news and follows the big (and not-so-big) happenings in politics and national interest, then sits down and tells us what he thinks about it. That’s it. And that’s what the HuffPo Guide and On Writing Well tell us that blogging/nonfiction editorials can be. Just a guy talking about what he thinks and offering an intellectual but accessible perspective on what’s what in the world. When I have a beard, maybe that’s what I’ll do.
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Some other blogs (but you can stay here)

So.
I’ll put my loudest complaints first, so we (love the Royal We) can end this post on a high note. Curiously, my biggest issue is with someone who has the least to say: Andrew Sullivan.
                I’m sure that, at some level, the ability to quickly compile a series of quotes from reputable sources relevant to a central issue is a useful and impressive skill. Proudly placing these quotes below yourbyline, Andrew, is an example of synthesis skill, not writing. I finished every article confused about whether any of the blue boxes (filled with the words of anyone other than Sullivan) was placed around the author’s opinions by mistake – Maybe I misread? Maybe the next article will redeem this collection of sequenced copy-pastes?
Nope.
Now, this being said, Andrew Sullivan has probably run out of things to say, as he turns out a stunning amount of content per day. It’s clear that he has a passion for current events, or the number of posts surely would have dwindled. Even his ability to find (new?) material for each subsequent blog and keep an engaged readership speaks to his intellect, if not his ability to inject a voice into his blog.
Several of the other more syndicated “blogs” shared the lack of a unique or personable voice, but for different reasons than obscuring authorship with outside quotations. While it’s somewhat unreasonable to give a critique of a blog as extensive (and multi-authored) as the NYTimes Wellness Blog in such a short space, it’s certainly worth mentioning that some of the authors do not appear to have been told they’re writing for a blog. Some “blog posts” read exactly like articles from a newspaper, lacking the conversational tone so characteristic of a blog. 
Zinsser (On Writing Well) would also disapprove of the treatment science receives in a few of the front-page articles; rather than leading into the blog with a compelling personal connection, the authors fall victim to a common journalistic trap – “Researchers at blanket blank have shown.” Others at the Wellness blog give exactly what I expect and want from the platform, namely Suleika Jaouad, whose posts about living with cancer as a young adult deserve more than a perfunctory sentence in this review.
                As far as science reporting goes, Gizmodo may disappoint Zinsser, but the intended audience for a tech blog is allowed to be more niche (and less dependent upon personal interest lead-ins) than a general readership. In the case of Gizmodo, the readership consists of highly opinionated tech-geeks whose desire for new material on consumer products (if you don’t care about smartphones, close Gizmodo and never come back) is only matched by their desire to argue in the comments below each post. Possibly because of the specificity of the blog, the authors don’t need to work hard to generate spirited conversation – The readers are out in force, and the bloggers (who all come off like the readers, but with bylines) know just what they want to read. Zinsser would be proud of the bloggers for their enthusiasm; they write about what they’re interested in, and it shows.
                With Gizmodo thoroughly summed up, we’re left with two – David Roberts at the Grist, and Howard Fineman at the Huffington Post. Fineman and Roberts share a characteristic I value in these blogs, and which NYT and the Daily Beast left me without: A voice. There is a continuity of character and personality between posts, there is personal opinion and analysis (without being drowned by quotes), and I can imagine intelligent, real people typing on the other end. If Fineman wasn’t a contributor to the HuffPo guide to blogging, he could have been – The dry humor and political wit come off like the thoughts of a longtime political journalist finally given free rein to express them without employment anxieties (perhaps that’s really the case), a writer model naturally attracted to the Huffington Post. 
                I love the picture of David Roberts at the top of his page – The beard and the humorous eyebrow raise might as well be an artist’s representation of his writing style. As far as I am concerned, this man avidly reads the news and follows the big (and not-so-big) happenings in politics and national interest, then sits down and tells us what he thinks about it. That’s it. And that’s what the HuffPo Guide and On Writing Well tell us that blogging/nonfiction editorials can be. Just a guy talking about what he thinks and offering an intellectual but accessible perspective on what’s what in the world. When I have a beard, maybe that’s what I’ll do.
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Wow, Everything Sucks.

Hollywood doesn’t make movies about functional suburban families. Audiences just don’t respond to two parents that love each other like they do to Will Ferrell’s misshapen ass. No one would pay eleven bucks to watch a well-fed, educated, hygienic human male for two hours. Harry Potter was an orphan wizard, Nemo was physically disabled fish, Rainman was mentally disabled gambler, and even totally boring Peter Parker was lucky enough to be bitten by a radioactive spider. I broke my wrist twice, and in preschool I peed my pants on stage during a school play. Not the most exciting feature film. Try to imagine a montage scene of backing my car into trash cans and mailboxes. My own best friends would probably wait until it was on HBO to watch, and even then only when SportsCenter cut to commercial.

Despite its lack of sex scenes and choreographed fights, my normal childhood was surprisingly enjoyable. I was fortunate enough to have any opportunity I could want, love in my life, and every reason to succeed. I realize how lucky I am to be who I am. I could have be born in the year 722 in the middle of the desert, my life’s only purpose to find water before it’s too late. Without that desert to wander you lose appreciation for things that really matter. Instead, I spent my time Myspacing, IMing, texting, Facebooking, Tweeting, and watching movies and TV shows that told me I could be anything I wanted to be.

Why the fuck would they do that?

How was I supposed to accomplish anything without an abusive father or zombie apocalypse to fight against? All this goddamn comfort and happiness has done nothing but stand in the way. My movie sucks because I was told to dream big. Today I could have been a millionaire, or a professional athlete, or somebody who actually helps people with problems. I could have applied myself to something and actually achieved it. But my parents always supported me when I changed my mind. They loved me unconditionally. I could have used some conditions. Now I’m 21-years-old with few skills that don’t involve an Xbox controller. When was I even supposed to become a better person? By the time I resolved whether to use “haha” or “lol” in a text and find the best porn site to invest my birthday VISA gift cards in, there was no more time for contributing to the world. The life parents and grandparents worked so hard to build for me ruined my life.

If you’re reading this and thinking, “Wow, this bum is worthless.” I am. But so are you. Would anyone pay to see your stupid movie? Are you really doing anything more than overpopulating the world?

No and No. But don’t feel bad. Most people are just as insignificant as you. Our whole generation sucks, and it’s not even our own fault. Bright, flashing screens brainwash us into eating foods that will kill us and buying clothes that make us feel less ugly. We can’t actually do anything important when there’s always an episode of Seinfeld on or a cute puppy video we haven’t seen yet. We know every Kardashian but we don’t know our neighbors. We love the new Justin Bieber song but we hate anyone with a different skin color. We think we know a little bit about everything but really we know nothing.

And I’m the worst offender.

Unbelievable boredom and intense normalcy has led to consumption of everything and anything. Without anything to do but take part in this incessant stream of meaningless shit, I have formed and perfected a overly-critical, absurd sense of judgement featuring a warrantless hatred of nearly everything I see. This is my gift. This is my curse.

Wow Everything Sucks will not cure cancer or bring about world peace. It will absolutely not better any facet of the human race. What it will do is what I can do. What most people like me can do. Nothing. It will provide no edge, no passion, no worth. But it’s better than what you’re probably going to do with your computer and that totally inconspicuous bottle of Lubriderm in your top drawer. So read it. Add to it. Be that anonymous commenter spewing out questionably ethical insults. Your movie already sucks, so why not?

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The Site for the Educated Sports Fan Celebrates Its Infancy

As I write this, I’m just a few weeks removed from perhaps the most unceremonious birthday I’ve ever celebrated: the renewal of this website’s one-year domain registration.

A little over a year ago, I logged onto GoDaddy.com (thanks, Danica) and launched TheFanManifesto.com – a site that began as a personal blog, and has since evolved into an online daily sports magazine that has seen more than 60 writers and fans contribute work under its masthead.

When we started, there was nothing on the web that even attempted to provide what we do.

15 months later, there still isn’t.

I’d be the first to praise Grantland and TheClassical – both of which recently celebrated similar anniversaries – and I’d also say that BleacherReport has improved, even if most of its content is still composed of/by steaming piles of crap.

None of them do what we (try to) do.

Yet, as proud as I am of the progress we’ve made, I’m shocked (and terrified) of how much work is left to be done.

Bottom line: This internet thing isn’t easy as I thought.

See, whenever I’m talking about my website with friends or family, I get one initial question.

How much money do you make?

The answer: Nil. Nada. Or what might as well be. Like 99.9 percent of my fellow internet entrepreneurs, I make a sum of money so negligible it might as well not exist.

Those ads you see on the page? I’d need a million hits a day to grab 2 for $20 at Applebees.

Money has never been the goal here, and it never will be.

So for those of you new here, what are our goals?

First and foremost, to have fun. For the most part, I think we’ve succeeded on that front.

(Though, not gonna lie, WordPress can be a bit of a bitch.)

Otherwise?

To fulfill our stated creed as best as possible.

That is, to provide you, the fan, with a place to read unique, original and controversial content devoid of sensationalism, overt cynicism or bandwagoning.

And to do it from the perspective of the fan.

And to do it every (week)day.

Needless to say, it hasn’t been easy. And as much fun as we’ve had, we haven’t been 100-percent successful with all of the above.

There have been times where we haven’t published content for days at a time.

There have been times where I have personally failed to publish content for weeks at a time.

(Though, as our Editor-in-Chief, I edit every column that hits our homepage.)

There have been times where we’ve published content that, frankly, wasn’t all that good.

I’m not going to lie: it’s been a learning process.

But, with learning comes improvement – and there’s no doubt the product you’re reading now is infinitely better than the one you would have read a year ago.

Our readership has increased every month this year except for one.

Our gameplan has become more clear, and trimmed of fat (I once planned for 15 writers to have a weekly column. Let’s just say that one didn’t work.).

Every writer trying to execute that gameplan – myself included – has improved tremendously.

Which is amazing because what little ad revenue we receive is reinvested in the infrastructure of the site.

Which is amazing because all those passionate people are working for free.

That’s pretty incredible.

Watching so many different people commit themselves to a project, without the promise of monetary gain – that may be my favorite part of the last year.

In fact, that commitment is what I think makes us different, and why I maintain that, even if we’re not yet half of what we can be, we’re still way more than much of what’s out there.

We’re fans. We’re doing this because we love these games, and we know you do too.

We know that you’re looking for somewhere to read the opinions of people who aren’t concerned with creating a stir or creating a page views.

For the most part, we’ve succeeded on that front.

One day, I want to write that sentence without a qualifier.

I hope you’ll still be here.

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My Music History: A Brief Autobiography

My name is Houston Golden, and I am the Founder of Music Will Save The Day. As a 23 year-old independent music producer, multi-instrumentalist, singer-songwriter, web-designer, digital media entrepreneur, and writer, I am always learning new things and pursuing my dreams. Born and raised in Dallas, Texas, I now reside in Nashville, TN, where I am attending Vanderbilt University as an English Major finishing up my degree this year.

Learn more by visiting www.HoustonGolden.com/music

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A prelude

My love affair with blogging began when I was 4 years old.

An unlikely claim, sure. Obviously, the internet did not exist back then, nor could I read or write. Perhaps more accurately, the blogger’s spirit was born out of activities directly traceable to my preschool self.

Wielding my red crayon in hand, a never-ending stack of construction paper was my story board. I discovered early on that I had a voice, a passion for story telling. Channelling my frenetic energy into an expendable creative force, I began churning out stories with a feverish intensity. I drew pictures and dictated the narrative to my mother, who helped transcribe my thoughts into their natural written form. Of course, my characters were mostly animals, and my stories chronicled their everyday adventures. (Unfortunately for them, however, there was always conflict or tragedy involved.) I would like to say that these were sophisticated allegories, rife with complex meaning. As a wee tot, I was merely flexing my creative strong-arm before sitting down to write the next Moby Dick. Well, maybe not. But the seeds had been planted, the passion cultivated. A dangerous thing to be sown into an impressionable young mind.

As a natural progression, I got my first computer, a Windows 1997 PC, when I was 8 years old. By this point, the Digital Revolution was well on its way. America was online—and so was I. This, I will argue, changed everything.

Growing up in Southern New England, my world was small and comfortable. In fact, my state is the smallest in the country—although with the best damn seafood you’ll ever encounter. Surrounded by a close-knit family, the Providence city sprawl, and a hell of a lot of water, my identity was anchored by two grounding characteristics in particular: Rhode Island culture and an Italian heritage. My world was a bubble, albeit one shaped like a cannoli.

Despite their apparent inability to stop micromanaging all other areas of my life, my doting parents—bless their hearts—were strictly laissez-faire when it came to learning. Active around the clock, I was heavily involved in school and athletics and excelled at both. Still, I was perpetually curious. The internet was my intellectual stomping grounds, and anything was fair game. My creative childsplay from earlier years set a strong precedent to follow.

Here, the tides finally turned. There was something positively addicting about this emerging Information Age. I continued to write. My narrational voice began to mature as I utilized the tools of the time to explore new economies of exression: I created “zines” with friends and published websites on freely available platforms (Geocities, anyone?). In middle school, however, I began blogging for real. I didn’t know much about the world, but I was eager—hungry, even—to learn: about science, politics, social injustices. I was 12 years old around the time when the first real blogging platforms emerged. It began to change the way I saw the world in a fundamentally important way, destabilizing my sense of self and expanding my experiential reality. There is a direct correlation between my involvement in the blog-o-sphere and my escape from my private Catholic school near my hometown. My values began to develop. I gained a new sense of what moved me. One thing led to another, and I was ruined. Rhode Island girl, gone renegade.

To illustrate, one particular encounter stands out as particularly damning evidence of my newly acquired world view and the effects it had upon me as a learner. I remember in 7th grade, a teacher proposed the following homework assignment: relate a personal experience that proves the existence of God. The smart ass I was, I raised my demure, adolescent hand and replied that it was impossible to prove such a thing. My objection had absolutely nothing to do with religion and everything to do with science; I was concerned with factual accuracy, the scientific method, and the logical burden of proof. Perhaps I took the assignment too literally, but make no mistake about it, I wanted the definitions to be clear. For the sake of science.

I got detention for that one. Needless to say, I got out of there quickly. I went to boarding school and joined a global community of learners; later, my academic interests lead me to attend an elite southern university. And here I am, still writing about science.

Ultimately, this might not tell you any revealing facts about me, but it describes an important catalyst during the formative years of my life. Through blogging, I gained passion, voice, and personal resolve. We have an epistemological duty to understand why we think the way we do and why. Early on, I learned the importance of asking questions. I believe knowledge-seeking is a virtue, and cultivating virtuous qualities is an important part of living a meaningful life. To find out what moves you is a worthwhile life project in itself, and surely the only way to achieve personal authenicity.

My autobiography is still a work in progress. I march to the beat of my own drum, just like everyone else. Despite colossal disappointments and devastating failures, I can say that I live an authentic life. The rest is inconsequential. And anyway, as a fine man once said: the secret to being a bore…is to tell everything. I much prefer though experiments.

 

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Introduction

“I just don’t want to fall!” the terrified six-year-old screamed at her mother. The other children had walked easily and briskly across, with mini-Olympic dismounts, but the little girl had reached an impasse. Stuck at a dizzying height, the simple task of finishing her way across the beam was like asking her to cross the Atlanta skyscrapers outside on a tightrope.
“Just take a deep breath,” her mother said calmly. “Keep your balance, and keep going.”
The word “balance” probably doesn’t much to a child, and probably didn’t mean much to me as I sobbed hysterically in front of my curious classmates, but when that clutching paralysis of an impending fall set in, I knew I had to make a change. My movements didn’t have to be drastic, but I had to do something to not plunge 3 feet onto the mat in front of everyone – the ultimate defeat. Even when a child starts to lose their balance, they know to realign. I was lucky enough to always have someone encourage me to try in the first place.
Although my gymnastics career was short-lived, I’ve loved performing on life’s proverbial balance beam from an early age. It started out with a fear of crossing and falling in front of others, but I gained confidence from my parents and teachers as I discovered my basic skills: reading, writing, and people-pleasing. (‘Rithmatic? A gentle gust of math is enough to knock me off a sidewalk, but I’ve learned to accept that.)  A social butterfly and bookworm, I started to flit across playgrounds and cartwheel through libraries, always encouraged to make more friends and try new things. From track to musical theater to Spanish to student council, my range of interests grew as I reached adolescence. I didn’t want to just do the most activities – I wanted to be the best at all of them.
Incorporating new movements into my routine led to inevitable falls, and many of the most painful were caused by outside distractions. Watching a parent suffer an addiction made me not ever want to even get back up when I fell, but mentors, my mom, and a-wise-beyond-her-years younger sister pushed me to take those deep breaths and hoist myself back up.
When I entered high school, I started to see the value in balancing other people and not just my own achievements. I took great joy in mentoring middle school girls, giving them the same advice my mom did when I was scared – hold your head high and keep going.  Helping other girls cross the beam, especially when I’ve felt the same grips of falling what feels like hundreds of feet, is still a particular passion of mine.
Entering my senior year at Vanderbilt, I feel strongly about the routine I’ve worked on for years – I’m currently in the groove of maintaining philanthropic efforts through my sorority and job experiences at two children’s hospitals and Teach For America. I love my academic pursuits, the relationships I have with professors, and late night study sessions. Lifelong friendships and family give my balancing act a spark without which would make all of my flips and twists lackluster. Trips and stumbles happen every day but I have people in my life who tell me to keep doing my best.
So much for me is on the line right now as I approach graduation, and the little girl scared of falling is starting to get anxious as she peers down to the mat and those watching her every move. Even though I can handspring from a test on the rhetoric of social movements to a charity event to a night out with friends, I fear the disappointment of everyone (including myself) if I don’t go for higher scores with more complicated routines. Training, practicing, studying, planning, applying, moving, flipping, flying – overwhelming.
However, when I start to get too focused on what the judges out there are thinking, I remember what my mom said: “Keep your balance and keep going.” I’m beginning to realize that even if I’m not perfect, showing the people I care about that they are the most important thing to balance in my life – even if I fall – is a feat worth its weight in gold.    
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a personal bio.

Admittedly, I have a flare for the dramatic. And no, I don’t mean the catty “I told everyone about your dirty little secret” kind of teenage drama that seems inevitable if you are in high school or just reached puberty. I’m talking about the skillfully thought out, thrilling one-liners and plot twists essential to a successful TV-drama. If you’ve ever seen the pilot episode of Aaron Sorkin’s “The West Wing,” you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about. The show begins, as you might presume, by introducing you to the characters. You also might predict that these critical White House staff members would be caught in some sort of political emergency or theatrical grabber involving their prestigious place of work. Instead, we see the Deputy Communications Director at a bar, discreetly eyeing a woman across the room, a woman who later is revealed to be a prostitute to the audience as well as to Rob Lowe’s unknowing character, Sam Seaborn. We are then transported to a gym where we are introduced to the White House Press Secretary: a tall woman flirting with an uninterested man running quietly next to her before she falls off the back of her treadmill. The Chief of Staff is a serious looking man with a raspy voice, answering a phone call in his home. You get the idea. All of the scenes show characters in the midst of their eclectic personal lives, and all of the scenes then show these personal activities disrupted by some piece of alarming news about an elusive “Potus.” I hope I haven’t given anything away by writing this out (the storyline works much better when spoken aloud). But flash back to Seaborn, now in the apartment of the hooker the morning after – still unaware of the full extent of his situation, I might add. As she informs him that he received a page saying “Potus in a bicycle accident.” Now the hooker is just as confused as we are, commenting that Sam’s friend Potus has a funny name. And here’s when we get to my favorite part. The ingenious one-liner, the clarity in this inexplicable scenario, the drama in this smart, thought-provoking script. Sam makes his way to the door, now half dressed and fully disheveled as he hurries to make it to the “office” (an endearing way of describing the west wing of the White House). “He’s not my friend, he’s my boss, and it’s not his name, it’s his title,” he explains to the prostitute, now high from the weed she’s been smoking. And just before he reaches the door Sam turns around and says, “President of the United States.”

In the end, I love the drama of it. I love the backwards way of first examining the lives of White House staffers instead of their jobs. And how, in the end, Sorkin really was examining both. But mostly, I love this impressive introduction because I love politics, and I love drama, and this is the only outlet where I find it even remotely acceptable to find them wrapped up in one big package. In real life? Well, in real life I am very much a proponent of keeping politics drama free. In real life, I’m still a junior in college holding on to the hope that someday ratings will no longer be the major influence in media coverage, and that students will once again be at the center of political activism. If I had the ability to convince American youth of one thing (wishful thinking, I’m aware), it would be that the young citizens of our country can and should be involved in things that can make a difference on a national and global scale, and should at least avoid the apathy which has come to define so many young political mindsets. In an effort to work towards such high aspirations, my own goal is to inspire student activism in myself, and in others through words. Words and opinions and knowledge free from political drama, and full of political realities, and of the moment issues and facts.

So, yes. I am one of those people that loves a little drama now and again. (Who doesn’t?) But when that overly dramatic response pops into my head, or I daydream of living out the life of one of the characters on the West Wing, I remember that theatrics are better watched then lived. And sometimes reality is  just more fun.

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Nice to Meet Me!

Sumz, Samantha, $umdog Millionaire, Summé. This is just a sampling of the many creative nicknames for me floating around the Internet. But who is the girl behind the oh-so-punny Twitter handle @Sum_Dog and Tumblr blog (500) Days of Summy, and how did she get here?

First, to clarify, I am a girl. My name is a derivative of my Chinese name, Shui Sum, which means “faith” and “heart”. I have had many written correspondences with people who believed Summy is a man; I’m also friends with two different male Summy Lau’s on Facebook.

I was born in Hong Kong but raised in the suburbs of Chicago. My family and I lived in the same modest-sized home for fifteen years. The bottom half was brick; the top half, yellow paneling. My brother and I often forgot our keys, so we’d have to sneak in through the front windows or climb a tree to get onto the roof. Such were the privileges of growing up in a safe neighborhood. We shoveled snow in the winter and raked leaves in the fall, two excruciating chores that I’d come to miss dearly when we moved to a condominium halfway through high school. We had a ping-pong table in the basement, a wok in the kitchen, and slippers, not shoes, on our feet.

I’m not white, which made growing up in a predominantly-white suburb a uniquely uncomfortable experience. I still remember the first day I realized I wasn’t white. I was sitting on the bus between my two best friends, Leah and Molly, forming objects in our imaginations from white cloud puffs against a blue sky. Robbie Tomal (the Third) called out my name to ask a question.

“Where are you from?” Everyone turned to watch.

“Park Ridge.”

“No, you’re not,” he said with a smug smile. “Where are you from?”

I still wasn’t sure what he meant, but his tone bothered me. His question automatically labeled me as foreign. Other. Since preschool, I grew up successfully assimilating to everyone else but always being aware of my race. Unlike most of my classmates, I dreaded substitute teachers because I knew they’d butcher my official name. While my friends were eating Lunchables, I had rice and veggies in my Velcro bag. My mom showed up to school and passed out candy to my class for Chinese New Year.

One of my favorite things to do as a child was read chapter books, especially The Babysitters’ Club. I believe that my current career interest in reading and writing fiction comes from the time our TV broke and we put off buying a new one for months. I’m not sure if we were poor or just lazy, but it fostered a love of reading that changed my life. My favorite books are Huckleberry Finn, Harry Potter and Great Expectations. What can I say? Something about an adventurous young boy in a coming-of-age story resonates with me.

I grew up watching The Simpsons, which I believe explains the “Most Sarcastic” senior superlative that I won in high school. However, people always tell me that I come across as genuine, so I don’t know who to believe.

My dad is a pastor, physicist, audiologist, and avid fan of model planes. My mom is a social worker in Chicago’s Chinatown and yummy cook. My brother is getting his Ph. D in nuclear engineering and a Corgi. I use the term “best friend” too liberally, but my best friend in high school was two years younger than me and we went trick-or-treating until I was seventeen. He always wore the same mad scientist mask. Now he’s a Yale man.

Besides my family and friends, traveling abroad has shaped me in a way that no other experience has. Three summers ago, I traveled to Mexico City on a missions trip and saw true poverty for the first time. We did a lot of home visits to families in the slums, and I couldn’t believe the conditions that families lived in, one-room homes with dirt floors and cement walls, in the darkness, with one big bed for everyone. Yet they were so happy and grateful just for our presence, buying us fizzy drinks and thanking God for their American guests. With its dry climate, blue skies and colorful food, I felt at home in Mexico and vowed to someday return.

The next summer, I lived in Bangkok for seven weeks with the same organization and saw true poverty for the second time. I lived with a host “grandma”, an old woman called Grandma Pensri who lived in a slum on the outskirts of Bangkok where the forgotten, elderly poor gathered. All the two-room wooden homes were perched atop pitch-black water filled with litter and trash. I took bucket showers and counted a hundred insect bites. I listened to the monsoon-season rain slam against the corrugated tin roof. I met prostitutes, ladyboys, beggars and monks. I realized that my life trajectory, career goals and passions had changed.

Shortly after returning from Bangkok, I studied abroad in Madrid. I strolled down long and winding streets that had existed for hundreds of years. I rode a bike for the first time. I drank wine and turned red. I watched the Eiffel Tower sparkle at night, passed on the London Eye because it was too expensive, and ate a waffle in Belgium. For a few months, life slowed down.

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Nice to Meet You

I believe a proper introduction is in order.
Hello, I’m Emma Grager [insert handshake here].
I’ve been doing this thing called life for a little over 19 years now. But the adventure it has been is so great, that one little number doesn’t seem to do it justice.
Here are some more numbers to fill in the picture:
Number of stamps in my passport: 8
Number of places I have lived: 3
Number of languages  I speak: 3
Number of universities at which I’ve studied: 3
Number of instruments I play: 5
Ratio of items of clothing in my closet to days in a week: 10:1
Ratio of sugar and cream to one cup of coffee: 2 and a splash: 1 (repeat as necessary)
Number of hours I spent driving a ski boat this summer: 220
Number of songs I’ve written: 29
Number of miles I currently am from “home”: 2,360
Ratio of Italian heritage to Norwegian heritage: 1:1
Number of books on my shelf: 32
Ratio of words said to hand gestures used: 3:1
But maybe you’re like me, and words matter a lot more than numbers to you. In that case, let me add some color.
I was born in Seattle, the first of two daughters of Courtney and Steve. I called that rainy city home until we moved to the East Bay area of California when I was four. My early years explain my combined love of storms and beaches. But I’d say I’m a California kid at heart.
In the little suburb of Danville, my sister Camille and I spent most of our time playing outdoors. Six-year-old Emma could cook up a mean mud pie, construct a pond-worthy vessel for Lego people out of tin foil, and draw up architectural plans for a new tree house in just minutes. Little Emma also adored words: multicolored, dirigible, antagonize. Poor little Emma could not understand why her love of words meant that she had to change schools. Apparently first graders aren’t supposed to be able to read Stuart Little until much later.
I started second grade at a challenging private Christian school, which I attended until high school. The Christian Academy allowed my love of academics to flourish and my faith in Jesus to grow. 
Starting high school felt like that first day of second grade in a lot of ways. I was surrounded by new people in an unfamiliar environment, anxious and excited.
But some important things were different.
My parents divorced that summer.
I quit taking classical violin lessons, as I had been for the previous ten years.
And I had been totally in love with Jesus Christ for about six years. 
Family, music, and faith were and are the most influential aspects in my life. Each of these changes became blessings of their own in my high school years.
As far as family goes, the divorce meant that my mom had finally found her self-worth and we had a shot at being psychologically healthy adults someday. I now live, when I visit home, with my mom and my sister. We “Grager Girls” make the best team I’ve ever been on.
Speaking of teams, sports were never my thing. I’ve tried everything you can think of. I now stick to snow skiing in the winter, water skiing in the summer, and going to the gym in between. 
Instead my passion and gift lies in music. Stopping violin lessons didn’t mean stopping violin. Now, I play improvisational instead of classical. I’ve also picked up a few other instruments along the way. In fact, I have dedicated my career to the writing of songs, thanks to a little nudge from my main man, Jesus. But that’s a different story for another time.
My faith informs my entire existence. I’m sold out and I wouldn’t have it any other way. My walk with God is a daily discovery of his grace, justice, love, and forgiveness. I don’t claim to know what I’m doing by any means, but I do claim to be His. 
Family, music, and faith carried me through high school and to some fabulously unexpected places. 
Like Georgetown University for a class on justice and peace.
Like Sojourners Magazine for a volunteer internship in writing.
Like Kenya for a worldview-altering experience with AIDS orphans.
Like a houseboat ministry camp for a summer of beautiful chaos. 
And, ultimately, here, to Vanderbilt University, as an English Creative Writing major. 
To this sentence.
And from here on, I hope to use my love of words in combination with my other loves (fiddle music, Kenyan chai, old photos, long stories, rainy days, French pastries, Instagram, Photoshop, The Great Gatsby, hiking, new people, old places, Shakespeare, traveling, new book smell, chocolate, Donne, and so much more) to give you a fresh perspective on the fascinating thing we do called life.
By means of analogy.
Because somehow I am kind of like you.
And you are kind of like me.

And somehow This Is Kind of Like That. 

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The Bio Blog


An adventure of ordinary proportions

I think Aristotle gets a bad rap. A lot of popular opinion includes some unwarranted scorn towards his ideas, since a lot of his science has been disproven since his death over 2000 years ago. What I like most about Aristotle, though, is that he was into everything. He was one of the fathers of modern philosophy and of the scientific method, as well as writing on such different topics as politics and biology. I like to imagine that Aristotle’s blog-bio would change every few weeks as he decided he was most interested in his new favorite topic, because, well… that’s me. Some days I’m very single-mindedly writing and recording music, followed by obsessive research on an engineering topic that came up in one of my classes, and the next day I may be immersed in a book about math history. The book is key, really, because reading is generally my default state. My family has a running joke that our conversations generally follow the same format:
“Nathan, do you have any plans for after dinner?”
*flip*
*30 seconds*
*flip*
“No, I’m not doing anything.”
I love fiction, science fiction, history, literature, nonfiction (math history was not a joke, that stuff is way more interesting than it sounds), and cookbooks. My college bookcase contains, in fact, one cookbook, two books on philosophy, The Iliad, a collection of Number Theory proofs, a history of Waterloo, and a Jules Verne collection. Full disclosure: just listing those books made me a little euphoric because I can’t wait to read/reread them.
I was born to two Army officers*, so I spent most of my life moving from place to place, enough so that I can’t accurately say which of my elementary schools was in which state. When we finally stopped moving around (during high school), I had already adjusted to a lifestyle of flux – You’re the new kid, you start to fit in, you make some friends, then you leave them and don’t stay in touch. It sounds sad, but it’s more cathartic than anything; I don’t ever feel like I’ve missed out on a precious set of memories or development because I made new friends every few years. I will say, though, that college showed me a personality weakness born of this moving – I depended upon being the new kid to make friends. On the first day of Vanderbilt, everyone is the new kid, and I didn’t have that handicap working for me, so I found myself less eager to seek out companionship than a lot of people around me.
A song by one of my favorite bands uses the lyric: “Now I’ve got lots of friends, yes, but then again, nobody knows me at all.” Now, I’m not so wrapped up in myself that I subscribe to the “no one understands me” school of thought (especially since it’s such an unrealistic expectation for all your friends to somehow know your innermost self), but that lyric is important to me because it represents what I never want to be. I would take a few close friends over knowing a lot of people any day, and, by that metric, I think I’m pretty successful. There are people in my life that mean a lot to me, and whose company and conversation I enjoy day after day, and… that’s enough!
*One of the biggest commitments in my life right now is Army ROTC. Serving in the military is a legacy on both sides of my family (after immigrating during the potato famine), and I suppose there’s always been a piece of me that knew I would end up walking the same path. As far as influences go, ROTC has certainly given me a sense of responsibility, discipline, and maturity (sometimes) , but I don’t feel like I’ve grown up enough yet to even consider having a real job and doing real grown-up things like being in charge of other people.
I’d actually like to close with another lyric from the same band:
                I can’t really say why everybody wishes they were somewhere else, but in the end the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself.”
                Growing up is something I feel like I’m still working on. Sure, I live in a room on my own, provide my own food, and such, but that can’t be what makes a person an adult, that’s just understanding when you’re hungry (and satisfying your needs with Snapple and baguettes). Maybe everyone looks more grown up from the outside, though, because I surely can’t be the only one around here still 12 at heart. Maybe growing up is getting to a point where you don’t feel guilty for still being a kid inside? I kinda hope so.
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